Day Ten plus Nine

A very sticky day but with a decent ending.

Woke after little sleep, feeling jittery and exhausted. The weather has been up and down, hot, cold, wet, sunny, windy – all over the place. Mid-afternoon I realised what was going on: the world's grieving. It's 9/11, eleven years on.

So, maybe I pick up all these vibes of despair?

At any rate I was all but unable to focus. Still got a few things sorted:

What went well today?
- access to my on-line Gaelic documents
- download of same
- picked up supply of Concerta
- taught an ESOL class, the short version
- received very good feedback from author of a text that I translated for someone else
- enjoyed a book club meeting
- prepared final documents for my tenants

How can I make it happen more regularly?

no idea – there's a magic to it all that I haven't cracked. Do I need to crack it?


What emotional pangs did I notice today?

felt overwhelmed by the number of jobs in hand and tasks to be done

What strengths have I focused on today?

being a bit of a juggler and improviser

At what point did I feel most authentically myself?
at various points: being a good teacher, being a good translator, trying to be a good facilitator, ...

Day after tomorrow, from Day Twenty plus One, I'm going to try staggering the two tablets, taking one early-ish in the morning and one a few hours later. I think two tablets in one go is too much – they make me jittery, "wired", far too much. But one was as good as ineffective. I'll give it a go for ten days. That'll make 30 days in all. After that, I'll see. I don't want to increase the dosage. May even stop altogether because the difference is distinctly underwhelming so far.