So this has been my 20th day on Concerta, tenth day on 2x18mg. I'm continuing for another ten days on the same dosage to see what's what.
Got up nice and early after what felt like a really good night's sleep, only half woke once because I needed to shift my duvet.
Most previous nights I've had maybe six hours and broken up into chunks of maybe two, three hours – not very restful.
During the day I felt "fizzy" but focused, even to the point where I forgot to eat and drink and then had a headache.
Had most of my Gaelic prepped just in time for my first phone tutorial in the evening. Connected with people in Scotland and the US (east and west coasts). Magic!
But it was very hard work and some of it bored me to distraction and almost to tears. Here's hoping some of the repetition will leave traces and help structures stay in my memory. But I do wish I had more time.
What emotional pangs did I notice today?
Frustration with technology. Frustration at being stuck at the computer on a day that would have been almost perfect for some increasingly urgent garden work.
What went well today?
Was ready for my phone tutorial and had a proper meal beforehand so stayed alert throughout.
Called my folks to wish them a great holiday and cracked some jokes with them, which is quite a rare thing.
What strengths have I focused on today?
I can be quite systematic and organised, actually, and today I managed to tap into this skill set.
At what point did I feel most authentically myself?
I don't know. I have so many facets, there's always a part of me that feels authentic while other aspects struggle to shine.
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